why do people have to hurt each other

You just waltzed back in my life like you deserved to be here or something. You could have come back anytime, anytime before now. But you waited and waited. And you know what? It's too late. I kept waiting for you to come back, and you didn't. You never came back, until now. Anytime before now I would have welcomed you back with open arms. But you're too late this time. I gave you more than enough chances to make things right and you didn't. I opened myself up to get cut wide open. I finally moved on. I'm happy and I don't need you anymore. That's something I never though I'd say. I'm sorry if I'm not ready to throw all of that away to let you back in and make me look like a fool when you screw me over. Again. I cant put myself through that again. You cant erase the past. The way we are now, is not my fault. I didn't cheat, lie, or push you away. You did this to yourself. I'm sorry if you cant find anyone who amounts to me, which you probably won't, but it's your own doing. I'm not saying this out of spite or pity or anger even. I'm saying this because I know that no girl will ever amount to what I was for you, what you were for me. No girl will ever connect and feel for you the way I did. Maybe that same will go for me. There's never going to be another guy that is just like you, who loved me like you did. But I'm ready to move on, to experience what else is out there. I cant put myself through what you did to me again. I need change. If we're meant to be, we'll find each other again one day and maybe I'm fall madly in love with you again, just like before. If not, I really hope you find happiness in the decisions you made, because God knows I would never have chosen this for us. But I also cant fix what you created, and I don't want to anymore.

Take care of yourself.

As you know, I'm not good at goodbyes but I guess that's what this is,
a real one this time, cause as much as I thought I wanted us to be together,
I guess what I want more is to be one of those people who lives every moment of their life without indecision and without regrets,
someone who dares to disturb the universe without a thought to the consequences, and you're not one of those people,
at least not yet.
Maybe you'll prove me wrong about that one day, hope you do, but who knows?
Maybe people can't change.
Maybe we're doomed to repeat the same mistakes over & over again, no matter how hard we try.
I always hope for a happy ending, how crazy is that?!
Take care of yourself.

one tree hill

Lucas: I never meant to hurt you.
Brooke: That doesn’t really matter, Lucas, because in the end it all hurts just the same.

why do we keep running back.

We run back to each other when it’s convenient.
We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other but not for right now.
So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else.
When in reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else.
But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.

you don't want to let him go.

Sometimes someone comes into your life that changes everything.
Raises your standards, makes you laugh, & makes you feel like you.
There's something about him that you can't put into words, & even though you're not even with him, you don't want to let him go.

I'm sorry I love you the way I do.

Sorry that we've taken for granted the love we shared;
Sorry for the waiting, Sorry to waste your time,
Sorry if I'm not worth it, you don't have to me mine;
Sorry for mistaking something I thought was true,
Sorry if you don't understand why I do what I do;
Sorry for my feelings as if they're not enough,
Sorry if we can't work through all this stuff;
Sorry if I'm cramping your lifestyle or getting in your way,
Sorry if I don't say the things you want me to say;
Sorry if I don't measure up to what you want me to be,
Sorry I can't be enough to make you just want me;
Sorry for apologising, but I don't know what else to do,
Sorry if my dreams only consist of me and you;
Sorry I ever met you, Sorry I'm not enough for you,
I'm Sorry I love you the way I do.

You're not sure that you love me but you're not sure enough to let me go.

And that guy, well, I'll never forget him.

I know a lot of people know who he is, but I also know there are not that many who got to see the side of the guy that I did.
And that guy, well, I'll never forget him.
Not ever.
I've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him and I wouldn't change a thing about it, including the ending.
Your heart needs to go through some bumps like these once in a while.
Besides, he has made a monumental impact on me and on my life in these past few years.
I know no matter how many years go by; my stomach will always do a little flip whenever I see that face.

This isn’t goodbye forever, it’s goodbye for now.

You meant the world to me, even if I didn’t mean the world to you.
You taught me so much, and I just want you to know, I appreciate everything you’ve done for me in the past years.
You gave me something to be happy about.
You gave me the meaning of what it’s like to know that someone actually cares.
You truly are an amazing person and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
I know things aren’t easy between us right now, but I hope someday soon, we can go back to how we used to be.
But no matter what, don’t ever forget than I am always here for you when you need someone, regardless of what the situation is.
You were there for me, so I’m going to be there for you.
This isn’t goodbye forever, it’s goodbye for now.

being strong would mean letting go...

Nothing is the same anymore.
The looks aren't the same; the bond is not the same.
Nothing is the same.
I know we've fought to stay strong for a while, but sometimes I feel that being strong would mean letting go.
So maybe one day, we won't pretend anymore.
So maybe one day, it will be okay again.
That’s all I want.
I don't care what it takes;
I want to be okay again.

Come on don't leave me like this -

i can’t just sit here

i can’t just sit here and wait for something that’s probably never going to happen.
but yet i still find myself holding on to faith and hope.